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Friday, October 09, 2009
FlashbackHow long has it been?
A few days, months, may be years.
Your smile I have not seen,
Nor have heard your gleeful cheers.
A few days, months, may be years.
Your smile I have not seen,
Nor have heard your gleeful cheers.
I know, you will not agree
Not care what I have to say
Perhaps deny vehemently
But still, you look changed today
Not the person whom I had known
Who stood out amidst all others
Who had dreams and wishes of his own
And who still knew how to be together
You will say, "It has been time
We have taken different ways
You have taken yours and I mine
These are no more the same days"
May be you are right
We really have walked away
But perhaps it is not time
It is us who have moved this way.
You forget this with ease today.
That we always were different.
Even then, we walked our own way.
But we were not so much distant.
When was it last I wonder now
When I had told you my tale
When was it when you had wanted to know
Or I had really cared to tell
I remember the nights
When we counted the stars,
For each star, we had something to say
Those nights today, look so much far.
And I look back to that day
Not care what I have to say
Perhaps deny vehemently
But still, you look changed today
Not the person whom I had known
Who stood out amidst all others
Who had dreams and wishes of his own
And who still knew how to be together
You will say, "It has been time
We have taken different ways
You have taken yours and I mine
These are no more the same days"
May be you are right
We really have walked away
But perhaps it is not time
It is us who have moved this way.
You forget this with ease today.
That we always were different.
Even then, we walked our own way.
But we were not so much distant.
When was it last I wonder now
When I had told you my tale
When was it when you had wanted to know
Or I had really cared to tell
I remember the nights
When we counted the stars,
For each star, we had something to say
Those nights today, look so much far.
And I look back to that day
Friday, July 27, 2007
An adieu...There aren't any tears as we part,
Neither does it pain somewhere in the heart.
Your eyes speak of anger and hurt,
I'm glad to know, ... I've too learned this art !
Of days when I looked in anticipation,
Waiting,unfailing for your smallest indication
The words so tender you never bothered to hear,
Preferring distance, in times we were near,
Switching at whim, from intimacy to inscience
Reminding consistently, this vice I must bear
The face which no more shined me with glee,
Often a voice critic and culpatory
All I heard was an uneven mandate,
All I felt was miserable melancholy
I chose to be free, in one of those moments,
Moving beyond you, and whatever you meant.
Sans regrets, for I know I was true ...
What was false, perhaps ... was every second spent.
You talk to me seldom, I've changed... you say,
Past the timidity, reply back now I may.
You're no one to me, if you only condemn and pain,
No more unqualified guilt, do I intend to gain
It's not a mere fancy, that you pleasure to play
I'll simply reject, and look forward to my way.
No longer would it be the meek and shy,
No further would I only silently comply,
It's all over now, how much you may try,
All you'd find .. is newer dreams in these eyes
Aiming high, at the vast wondrous sky,
Much more to attain, I have a lot more to fly,
Here I apart, it's time to say Good bye
Adios frog !... This nightingale refuses to die ...
Kapil
Friday, July 06, 2007
No title :(तेरी खामोशियों से युहीं प्यार हो गया है हमे ....
तेरी आंखों का युहीं दीदार हो गया है हमें ....
ए सनम तुझे प्यार कहूं, या खुदा ...
अब तो उसी खुदा का इंतज़ार , हो गया है हमें ....
Wednesday, June 20, 2007
HumanOn an aimless walk one day,
I saw a statue midway.
So serene and calm it stood there,
Undazed by noon's sun glare.
I was jealous for a while,
How peaceful it stood in turmoil.
Untouched by all human miseries,
No heart breaks and no maladies.
So much like us still so unique,
Carved by a master as a lovely piece.
Same eyes, same features as humans share,
but no heart, and no life breathes there.
In almost a whisper then I said,
I wish I stood there instead.
Away from life which drives me mad
And so often makes me sad.
I was amazed at the reply ,
which the statue made with a tender sigh.
"Do not bother, just a little wait
and you'll be granted the wish you made.
You always thought it's complete life you live
but ever growing up, parts of it you give,
Every time you suffer a pain
and then when you bear it again.
At last when you've had enough
You've gone through all phases tough
You give up all your human part
And stand like me a world apart.
Same eyes, same features as humans share
but no heart, and no life breathes there.
Such are found faces galore
Human in form, human no more!
What will I get out of life?
A simple smile or a tear for a while?
A lonely place, a friendly face?
A blissful end or endless strife?
The person in me,
will it survive?
It's killed each day,
wears away each night.
I am no more what I was.
Is life just it's own cause?
Falter, stumble, get up and walk,
Just move on, know not for what.
Is it just a matter of give and take?
Each one of us is just a bait?
No sway do we have on our fate,
All we have, is all on stake.
I know not why I carry on,
No reason to tempt me along.
I am a wave in an angry tide,
Will hit the shore and shatter all might!
Sunday, March 18, 2007
MY ETERNAL LOVEInside the carved kirk,
Beside standing the menorah,
Taking candles in the hand,
In front of "Mother Marry",
I am begging.
Wait!
Why should I beg,as a son I should demand.
Oh mother!
I am in abyss, totally dark
Searching my love without any lamp.
I can hear her but I can't,
I can see her but I can't,
I can feel her but I can't.
Her voice , her charm make me maim.
I am not a magnate neither create any magnet.
In a malandroit situation I am.
I promise I don't repeat,
The mistakes I have committed , the wrongs I deed.
Oh Mother!
She cares me,she hearss me,
She scolds me,she tease me,
But,but she never come forward to understand me.
How can I say "I love you "and "I truly do"
Oh Mother!
Your son is hapless
Have my desire ,
Have my desire.
Saturday, March 17, 2007
THE WOUNDGazing ,gazing my chared skin
Hold my hand ,the little angel,
What is this ? Quoth she,
In her mesmerizing tone.
"Unhold me ,forget it ",said I.
"No ,no ,need to know
Or forget your angel forever",said she
With rolling eyes with an affectionate tone.
'No",I yelled .
"Listen if you can , the story of a loser ,
The story of a fool."
"Long long ago,I used to laugh .
Iused to live ,Iused to see.
My giggles made everyone cry.
My shine made everyone dull.
How can you be so ? said the world .
My blushes, my words made my trap.
A sudden jerk from the back.
And I fall in the trap ,unbreakable ,invincible.
Don't leave him , said the world.
My coffin was put on the Chapel of Cathedral
The so called holy men put me out
Myself chained could not protect,
On the altar they burnt me .
I yelled -Jesus ......
And I am waiting .......
Years to go Years to come .
Sunday, February 04, 2007
SearchWandering aimlessly
In a place unknown...
It's the search in my eyes
Which tells I'm alone.
The roads are vacant
And routes so long...
It's the dolor inside
That says something is wrong.
The hall is swarming,
There's thrill, there's cheer
On hearing my own beats,
I realize none is near.
What's it that I seek?
Who's it that I look for?
Amidst this show of exuberance,
One couldn't have asked for more.
And yet this plethora of energy,
Seems hollow to my soul
As emptiness spreads,
And surrounds me in whole.
I look again desparately,
Some-how, it's just not clear
These eyes betray me again,
As they hold no-one but a tear.
I tend to ponder deeper,
My mind continues to explore
And yes I find you finally,
All so pristine and pure.
That in every melody, I hear your voice,
In every sight I see your face
In the overflowing crowd or a gloomy solitude,
I only feel You, wherever I look and gaze.
You accompany me in my lonely walks,
Your words I listen, when there's none to talk
You sit beside me in these empty seats,
It's only your glow, which sparkles in the dark.
From dawn till dusk,
As the time moves on
I get more and more convinced
You're here - I'm not alone.
For be it the euphony of birds,
Or the beauty of a blossoming flower
They all seem to convey
You're with me, every minute, every hour.
To search for You outside,
Was so foolish of me...
When in every corner of my heart, My Dear !
It's only You, whom I see.
Jan 06 ... Khoj ? ... :)