poems_dilse

Flashback

2009-10-09T22:57:00.004+05:30

How long has it been?
A few days, months, may be years.
Your smile I have not seen,
Nor have heard your gleeful cheers.

I know, you will not agree
Not care what I have to say
Perhaps deny vehemently
But still, you look changed today
Not the person whom I had known
Who stood out amidst all others
Who had dreams and wishes of his own
And who still knew how to be together

You will say, "It has been time
We have taken different ways
You have taken yours and I mine
These are no more the same days"

May be you are right
We really have walked away
But perhaps it is not time
It is us who have moved this way.

You forget this with ease today.
That we always were different.
Even then, we walked our own way.
But we were not so much distant.

When was it last I wonder now
When I had told you my tale
When was it when you had wanted to know
Or I had really cared to tell

I remember the nights
When we counted the stars,
For each star, we had something to say
Those nights today, look so much far.

And I look back to that day

An adieu...

2007-07-27T01:17:00.000+05:30

There aren't any tears as we part,
Neither does it pain somewhere in the heart.
Your eyes speak of anger and hurt,
I'm glad to know, ... I've too learned this art !

Of days when I looked in anticipation,
Waiting,unfailing for your smallest indication
The words so tender you never bothered to hear,
Preferring distance, in times we were near,
Switching at whim, from intimacy to inscience
Reminding consistently, this vice I must bear
The face which no more shined me with glee,
Often a voice critic and culpatory
All I heard was an uneven mandate,
All I felt was miserable melancholy

I chose to be free, in one of those moments,
Moving beyond you, and whatever you meant.
Sans regrets, for I know I was true ...
What was false, perhaps ... was every second spent.

You talk to me seldom, I've changed... you say,
Past the timidity, reply back now I may.
You're no one to me, if you only condemn and pain,
No more unqualified guilt, do I intend to gain
It's not a mere fancy, that you pleasure to play
I'll simply reject, and look forward to my way.
No longer would it be the meek and shy,
No further would I only silently comply,
It's all over now, how much you may try,
All you'd find .. is newer dreams in these eyes
Aiming high, at the vast wondrous sky,
Much more to attain, I have a lot more to fly,
Here I apart, it's time to say Good bye
Adios frog !... This nightingale refuses to die ...

Kapil

No title :(

2007-07-06T20:50:00.000+05:30

तेरी खामोशियों से युहीं प्यार हो गया है हमे ....
तेरी आंखों का युहीं दीदार हो गया है हमें ....
ए सनम तुझे प्यार कहूं, या खुदा ...
अब तो उसी खुदा का इंतज़ार , हो गया है हमें ....

Human

2007-06-20T11:47:00.000+05:30

On an aimless walk one day,
I saw a statue midway.
So serene and calm it stood there,
Undazed by noon's sun glare.

I was jealous for a while,
How peaceful it stood in turmoil.
Untouched by all human miseries,
No heart breaks and no maladies.

So much like us still so unique,
Carved by a master as a lovely piece.
Same eyes, same features as humans share,
but no heart, and no life breathes there.

In almost a whisper then I said,
I wish I stood there instead.
Away from life which drives me mad
And so often makes me sad.

I was amazed at the reply ,
which the statue made with a tender sigh.
"Do not bother, just a little wait
and you'll be granted the wish you made.

You always thought it's complete life you live
but ever growing up, parts of it you give,
Every time you suffer a pain
and then when you bear it again.

At last when you've had enough
You've gone through all phases tough
You give up all your human part
And stand like me a world apart.

Same eyes, same features as humans share
but no heart, and no life breathes there.
Such are found faces galore
Human in form, human no more!

Life's return

2007-06-20T10:30:00.000+05:30

What will I get out of life?
A simple smile or a tear for a while?
A lonely place, a friendly face?
A blissful end or endless strife?

The person in me,
will it survive?
It's killed each day,
wears away each night.

I am no more what I was.
Is life just it's own cause?
Falter, stumble, get up and walk,
Just move on, know not for what.

Is it just a matter of give and take?
Each one of us is just a bait?
No sway do we have on our fate,
All we have, is all on stake.

I know not why I carry on,
No reason to tempt me along.
I am a wave in an angry tide,
Will hit the shore and shatter all might!

MY ETERNAL LOVE

2007-03-18T09:29:00.000+05:30

Inside the carved kirk,
Beside standing the menorah,
Taking candles in the hand,
In front of "Mother Marry",
I am begging.
Wait!
Why should I beg,as a son I should demand.
Oh mother!
I am in abyss, totally dark
Searching my love without any lamp.
I can hear her but I can't,
I can see her but I can't,
I can feel her but I can't.
Her voice , her charm make me maim.
I am not a magnate neither create any magnet.
In a malandroit situation I am.
I promise I don't repeat,
The mistakes I have committed , the wrongs I deed.
Oh Mother!
She cares me,she hearss me,
She scolds me,she tease me,
But,but she never come forward to understand me.
How can I say "I love you "and "I truly do"
Oh Mother!
Your son is hapless
Have my desire ,
Have my desire.

THE WOUND

2007-03-17T22:59:00.000+05:30

Gazing ,gazing my chared skin
Hold my hand ,the little angel,
What is this ? Quoth she,
In her mesmerizing tone.
"Unhold me ,forget it ",said I.
"No ,no ,need to know
Or forget your angel forever",said she
With rolling eyes with an affectionate tone.
'No",I yelled .
"Listen if you can , the story of a loser ,
The story of a fool."
"Long long ago,I used to laugh .
Iused to live ,Iused to see.
My giggles made everyone cry.
My shine made everyone dull.
How can you be so ? said the world .
My blushes, my words made my trap.
A sudden jerk from the back.
And I fall in the trap ,unbreakable ,invincible.
Don't leave him , said the world.
My coffin was put on the Chapel of Cathedral
The so called holy men put me out
Myself chained could not protect,
On the altar they burnt me .
I yelled -Jesus ......
And I am waiting .......
Years to go Years to come .

Search

2007-02-04T19:01:00.000+05:30

Wandering aimlessly
In a place unknown...
It's the search in my eyes
Which tells I'm alone.
The roads are vacant
And routes so long...
It's the dolor inside
That says something is wrong.
The hall is swarming,
There's thrill, there's cheer
On hearing my own beats,
I realize none is near.

What's it that I seek?
Who's it that I look for?
Amidst this show of exuberance,
One couldn't have asked for more.
And yet this plethora of energy,
Seems hollow to my soul
As emptiness spreads,
And surrounds me in whole.
I look again desparately,
Some-how, it's just not clear
These eyes betray me again,
As they hold no-one but a tear.

I tend to ponder deeper,
My mind continues to explore
And yes I find you finally,
All so pristine and pure.
That in every melody, I hear your voice,
In every sight I see your face
In the overflowing crowd or a gloomy solitude,
I only feel You, wherever I look and gaze.
You accompany me in my lonely walks,
Your words I listen, when there's none to talk
You sit beside me in these empty seats,
It's only your glow, which sparkles in the dark.

From dawn till dusk,
As the time moves on
I get more and more convinced
You're here - I'm not alone.
For be it the euphony of birds,
Or the beauty of a blossoming flower
They all seem to convey
You're with me, every minute, every hour.
To search for You outside,
Was so foolish of me...
When in every corner of my heart, My Dear !
It's only You, whom I see.

Jan 06 ... Khoj ? ... :)

To a stranger

2006-11-29T23:02:00.000+05:30

(The title has been changed to be more appropriate. For details about this poem, read this - "Take a chance" )

Have you tried to tame the wild wind?
Storms that are seldom mild ?
Or rivers that flow like insane?
Have you walked on the beach
With waves splashing on your feet unrestrained?
Stretched your arms and thought of flying?

Been to core of wilderness?
Walked the path of unknown?
Taken the uncharted waters?
Or for sheer curiosity looked into
A strange domain?
Are you fascinated by the unfamiliar?

Do flowers give you joy?
Is the evanescence of dewdrops a treasure
And do the colours of a butterfly
Tell you of life?
Can you, beneath the vastness of sky
Sit in mere stillness?

Have you read a book, a page at a time?
Let time rule your world, yet
Been in your complete control?
Loved for the sake of loving
Not for your mortal heart but
For the timelessness of your soul?

Tried reading the mind of a stranger?
Seen unfamiliarity in your closest pal
And still not been bemused?
Have you seen sparks in ashes of dreams?
Can you smile through skinned knees?
And even broken hearts?

Have you seen in the drops of rain
The eternity of this world?
Life in the lifeless stones?
And in each of us, paradoxes curled?
May be I will not bewilder you then.
Me, you might have already known.

Ankita
8:53 PM 11/29/2006

Friend, are you listening ?

2006-11-04T23:05:00.000+05:30

From then, when friendships did commence
I had credulously believed in it,
In its age-old bookish definition
Of unconditional affection and care
In its being the undeclared promise
Of always being there.

I found no reasons of being thankful
When some friend had heard me out
No reason to be obliged or grateful
That my friend was holding me strong
I always thought that friendship was
About, together, moving along

With that word 'friend' were we not
Beholden to each other? Forever?
That was what I had always thought
But still, may be slowly, with time
The untarnished friendship I prized
Got covered by some unknown grime

Today when I stand here to share
Some smiles with those, I call friends
Why do I seem to see nobody here
All of them seem to have found a way
To unlock the clasp I held once
And slowly but surely, silently get away

Where are all those who had one day
Called me their friend and I, them mine
Who had once tacitly said they will stay.
Do my eyes betray me at this moment
Or did I misconstrue them that day
Have they all my friendships rent?

It is now when I look around to see
And search a friend to share my laughter
I realise how wrong I used to be
Its just a mere word - the word 'friend'
Like every good thing, one day
Even friendhips may come to an end.

But looking around among one or two
Who still stand with me uncomplaining
My dear friend, when I find you
I have that desperate urge to say
"Thank you Friend, I am pleased to know
Atleast our friendship did not fray!"

- Ankita
4:39 PM 11/4/2006

Forgetting You

2006-11-03T01:31:00.000+05:30

Slowly I manage to walk,
Through the sweet, forbidden land.
My fists are all empty,
As I feel the slipping sand...
These worthless eyes behold,
What's not meant for them.
But what sin do they make?
Bedazzled by the most scintillating gem.
The silence continues still,
As I reach the place again.
The breeze of eternal bliss !
And suddenly it begins to pain...

.

Beautiful, ambrosial words,
Which flowed fluently at pace,
They've left me as you've too,
Chosen a different space.
I try to gaze and wonder,
At this arid silent desert.
Where cheers resided for once,
And now a smile even does hurt.
I think Of dreams and expectations...
Of the beauty all around...
It's nothing but a change ...
A remembrance... of that melodious sound.

.

Unable to endure it all,
Everyday, I endeavor to forget.
But these unworthy eyes won't,
leave where they're now set.
Silent, unmoved, determined,
They wait, with adoration true,
Amidst all the swarm that surrounds,
They can't find that one view.
And I plead them to unknow,
Somehow, they seem to agree too.
Pretending to be forgetting as open,
They allow the phenomenon new.
But whenever the darkness knocks,
And dreams demand their due,
These wretched eyes close earnestly,
To watch only your radiant face,
... ... ... ... ... to admire my dear! only you.

Milestone

2006-08-16T13:21:00.000+05:30

I thought you were my destination
But may be you were just a milestone

Just can’t live with what has passed
Have got to move ahead at last
Life is never fully lived
There is always more to it
So I go with a gleam of hopes
And sever what’s gone like binding ropes
It’s like a fresh canvas again
I have my freedom with brush and paints
When I think one painting’s done
Just then the idea of another begins
I go on improving phase by phase
And thus slip away the passing days
In every work there’s some touch that lacks
I find that on looking back
So I desire more from each dawn
And that’s how the journey goes on

I thought you were my destination
But may be you were just a milestone
There is limitless sky and limitless land
There’s more to come and more I demand
But the journey is long and when I’ll want to be home
What will help me trace back will be milestones!

Half a Life

2006-06-11T15:43:00.000+05:30

I have lived but half a life
For other half I just strived
But after a while I did succumb
That left my heart cold and numb

I did only half the things I wanted
These thoughts keep me haunted
Only half the dreams have I fulfilled
Other half, I myself have killed

Sometimes for people, sometimes relations
At times with tears, at times with patience
Have left behind what I desired
And have left all my wishes mired

It’s only half a life that I have lived
Parting with those for whom I have cribbed
For in losing those I have lost
What half my soul would have cost

Living my half I do realize
What the world holds in disguise
We live but half a life of our own
And claim the half of other souls!

Are you in LOVE...?

2006-05-26T16:17:00.000+05:30

Think on the following interesting questions
And then share with me your notions
This will definitely tell how true your love is
And will make you realize what it's worth is
After reading this,relax and close your eyes
And imagine yourself alone in the paradise
You are lost, scared and in dejection
And longing for someone's love and affection
Suddenly you hear somebody calling you
And you think of getting that person's clue
Don't worry,it's the same,whom you adore
And value that person above everything,for sure.
Now think of the time when you were in distress
And your agony you could not express
Some doting words had consoled you
and remember what that person told you.

Now think of the time of some celebration
When you were longing for a companion
To share your happiness and achievements
Also your emotions and heart's sentiments.

Now think of those frequent walks
That made you share a lot of thoughts
With the person who understands you like no one else
And gives ear to whatever you tell.

Think of the person you consider as one
For confessing the sins you've ever done
To share every secret of your heart
To share every thought at it's start.

Think of the person whom you miss alot
Whom you see in your dreams and hear in your thoughts
Who is in your wishes and prayers
and the one for whom, the most you care.

Think of those gentle hands you want to hold
think of that beautiful heart of gold
think, to whom you want to hug tightly
who has outshone your world so brightly.

If the person for every question is the same
Then I must say in the GOD'S name
You are in love with that person for sure
Confide your emotions if they are pure
Because true love is not easy to get
and don't be late, before you regret
If your love is actually pure and true
It will definitely come and accept you...

Sound of Music

2006-05-26T15:44:00.000+05:30

I asked a person who was physically fit
An intelligent guy, full of wit
"What in nature do you like the most
Mountains,deserts,oceans or coasts?"
The person smiled
And thought for a while
"Its been thirty-eight years for me
to see the earth's same scenic beauty
Nothing is attractive now in this nature
And so will be in the near future
Same old mountains,same old deserts
Now don't give us any more pleasures
Same humid coasts, same wide oceans
All dense forests now affected with erosions
Have lessened the interest in my mind
New adventure is what we now find."
Then I asked person who was seventy-nine
But to my hard luck he was blind
How could I ask him the same question
And how will he able to express his notions
Still with hesitance,I dared to ask him
And he enlightened me with his whim.
"I am a blind since I was born
And haven't seen even a single morn
Natural beauty is still new to my eyes
Even at worst conditions it will be a paradise
I feel the nature from my ears
People see it with eyes, and I just hear
Sound of animals,sound of birds
Sound of different languages and words
Sound of raindrops, sound of rivers
Sound produced when leaves shiver
Sound of vehicles,sound of footwalks
Sound of people's unusual talks
Sound of laughter,sound of joy
Sound that comes from different toys
Sound of sorrows,sound of cries
Sound of a plane when it flies
Sound of everything,sound of everybody
Is definitely the sound of music for me
And music is something that never dies
And so nature for me is always paradise
I wish I could see nature just for a while
And could see the world over many miles
To see how beautiful is music
And how it creates it's eternal magic."
And then I realized music is very colorful
And it's sound also being very beautiful
That has added colors to the life of that blind
Hats off to this NATURE, which is so kind....

Thoughts and Creations

2006-05-26T15:41:00.000+05:30

The darkness of the night is always for a while
And then welcome the morning with a smile
Morning is a gift from our kind Lord
A golden opportunity,to miss,you can't afford
To do what you were unable to finish yesterday
Opening for you the doors to new ways
Where lies the world of beauty and affection
And where your thoughts guide your actions
Let in the first hour of the new day
Set the theme of success for which you pray
And certainly, positive actions will echo
That you have always longed for...
The actions, positive in attitude and expectation
Pleasure, happiness and satisfaction
So don't commence your day with a false start
Because making your own day is an art
Today will never happen again
This is the time, you will never regain
You were never born to fail in life
Create your own thoughts till you are alive...

The First Special Feeling...

2006-05-22T22:54:00.000+05:30

One day I asked a few people about
the moment that was the most stealing
that added life and ecstasy to their lives
YES! I mean their first special feeling...

The innocence of a child told me
that it was when his mother hugged him warmly.
For a mother it was the moment filled with sentiments
when she first carried her child with her arms bent.
For a soldier it was when he took an oath
to protect his country and its people both.
For a doctor it was that breath-taking moment
when he first brought back into life his patient.
A teacher told me about that memory he possessed
"it was when my students reached the zenith of success."
For a girl its in the arms of her sweetheart
from where she would never want to part.
The boy's feelings are precious to him like pearls
when he felt the love and affection of his girl.
I asked the two boys who were friends
they smiled and held each other's hands,
And replied with the words of pride and confidence
that it was when their friendship commenced.

Then everyone of them asked me the same
And I answered them in the GOD's name...

"I have my own beautiful small world
where there are some special people with this girl
With their hearts not less beautiful than a rose
and so they are to my heart so very close.
Each moment of my life I spend with them
Each moment of my life I dwell with them
makes me feel as the first day of spring
This is what i call my First Special Feeling...

Reservations

2006-05-19T02:33:00.000+05:30

I got up from my dream
About the Reservations
How good would had it been
If I could have some clarifications

I knew it from my grandfather
They reserved some seats
To help the poor and backward
Help them to succeed

Help them to succeed
So that they can earn name in society
But slowly the system corrupted
And thus increased the anxiety

The poor became poorer
No help is rendered to them
The rich became richer
Everything is offered to them

The game is no more to help
The game is no more so cool
The game that is left today
Is the game of Divide & Rule

Vote Bank is the only policy
No other thing now matters
With such a thing in country
Everyone's dreams shatters

How good would had it been
If I could have some clarification
Why the help is rendered again
Once the person has used Reservation

Not only just the dilution
Of brand Is what we are afraid
But its the Re-Brain Drain
Is whatz on the stake

Help them economically
Not just by Reservations
Its bad for them too basically
Creating a complex characterization
Its the primary level education
That holds more importance
How can they compete higher education
Knowing nothing of that existance

Merit has no substitute
We shouldn't be so liberal
The deserving one should come
May he be SC / ST / OBC or general

Help them give scholarship
Come forward and Teach
You don't have enough seats with you
Please don't Cheat

India has democracy
We have right to speak
Why do police beat students
When we peacefully Speak

Mahatma Gandhi, Pandit Nehru
ChandraShekhar Azad and Subhash Chandra Bose
All of them must be crying
On how pathetic are current India's boss

The time has come to come forward
And to do something of our own
This injustice will definitely end
And there is gonna be new dawn

JAI HIND
Arun Tangri

2006-03-30T09:53:00.000+05:30

A Bootless Prayer

A cool eve of summer it was,
the sun's slumber was in infancy,
the street light's grinning gloss
seemed to mock the awakening stars
for their shimmering hesitancy.
The lanes wore a watery attire
that made them to innocently acquire,
the look of bestrewn with thousand pieces of glass
when that attire prolonged the life of rays
which salvated in the realms of human mind as scenes timeless,
rather die on naked roads a death useless!

Like those rays,stretch also my life a bit,
cause few days do I have in my life's wallet,
the rest I spent recklessly in wine and harlot,
and now when love's eternal liquor inebriatesmy soul,
ruthless time lacerates the brimfrom my parched lips!

-Wanderer

Once upon a time (True)

2006-03-13T13:11:00.000+05:30

Once upon a time,
There was a happy family
A man and his wife,
Who lived in bliss and glee.
They had a little daughter,
The apple of their eye
Ah so little and sweet,
She was such a cutie pie.
Innocuous and innocent,
The people as they were
Any absence of money,
Was filled by love forever.
Unaware of world's filth,
In a paradise of their own
With their little princess around,
It never felt they were alone.

Then came the day,
They left for worship, to pray
As fate would have it,
Another vehicle intercepted their way.
There came a flash,
And it went dark all around
Soon he heard the cries,
But could not recognise any sound.
There lay his wife,
Silent, motionless, still
There was blood, there were people,
And In the frozen air, there was a chill.
He stood there ...robbed,
Robbed of his life so dear
The crowd shook him, shouted,
But he was silent, dumb... sans a tear.

She was his beloved wife,
A cousin, a daughter, a sis
She was a mother too,
Of the little child who will now miss.
They all came, they cried,
And cursed the destiny again
It was sorrow unbound for a loved one,
It was about dreams which will now be in vain.
Amidst the moans and wails,
Came a voice very clear
"Ma !" It asked with innocence,
It changed to anger, pain and then fear.
The mourns stopped for a moment,
And heads turned to her
Whose eyes were searching helplessly,
For her world, her dearest mother.

Once upon a time,
There lived a happy family.
Their world was shattered in moments,
There was no longer left any glee.

12 March - 7.30 am

Two kids and a Teacher. (Same as on my blog)

2006-03-01T02:58:00.000+05:30

Once there were two kids,
With lots and lots of wits.
Both were lean and lank,
But they had a good think tank.

There was a teacher who taught both of them,
In his subject came a problem to them.
They were very mixed up,
As to how the machines worked up.

They knew all about the equations of motion,
They knew all about the theory of motion.
But what was motion..?
How was that motion..?

They knew how the machine rotated,
They knew how the machine started.
But why the machine rotated..?
But why the machine started..?

They knew there were windings in there,
They knew these were wires wrapped in there.
But both were very confused,
As to how the windings used..?

One fine day they went hand in hand,
They had lots of questions to end.
Excellent teacher, they both thought,
Answers, that was all they sought.

They asked and then they entered,
The teacher looked really wondered.
With lots of expectations they questioned,
But the teacher looked really flattened.

Sir, we want to have a greater insight
All we want to know is, what is inside..??
With this, they both quietly waited,
A huge machine is what they anticipated.

Teacher was fully surprised,
Such a situation, he never had exercised.
Suddenly he knew it all,
What were the boys' call.

He brought with a lot of triumph,
And placed it with a huge thump.
He had the look in his eyes,
He looked as if at new skies.

What kids had thought was a big huge motor,
To let them understand the winding and rotor.
Now the astounded kids looked at each other,
And in front of them, there laid, a mixie motor.

To Love, with love

2006-02-26T23:07:00.000+05:30

Love, stay away.
I know you not yet
You I haven't yet met
Love, it is your day
People think of you today
Wish that you were with them
You are theirs, they all claim

But Love, not me.
I have too much to hold.
My heart needs no new mould
And I do not want to fall in love
I will rise beyond the sky above
Love, there are places you can go
And hearts where you can grow.

But love, not here.
You are too abstruse for me.
In you, confusion is all I see
Its always a different way
That about you, people say
I am left in a daze.
It is all a blur and haze.

Love, spare me.
My life has no more space
To hold yet another phase
My miracles lie in flowers
Dewdrops and rainy showers
Your gifts I cannot take
No sweet pain, no heart-break

Love, be gone.

Let my name remain

2006-01-09T23:08:00.000+05:30

I sat in the arms of silence

Watching the the capricious wave

And the impassive stretch of shore

As the sea continued to rave

Thoughtlessly I ran my finger

On that moist surface of land

And unknowingly wrote my name

Among the grains of golden sand.

Too short a life, my name had

Too small was its day

For soon the waves came

And washed my name away

I wonder if each time I write

On the sands of time, my name

Do the waves come there too

To erase it all again?

But in the folds of someone's mind,

In their forgotten memory lane

And that one special heart,

Waves, let my name remain.

Silent Reflections

2005-12-13T12:20:00.000+05:30

A sincere thanks for the thoughtful n apt title to Anki :-)

Slow and Steady,
The silence walks
In the shyness of a whisper,
in the frankness of talks.
Sitting alone,
in a melancholic sphere
The gloom surrounds,
as the time is near .

This is the one,
yes this is the place
Where we all arrived,
coinciding our ways.
With unabashed joys,
with aspirations and dreams
Has been quite a time,
yet so close it seems.
Out of the secure cocoon,
we came fresh and new
To explore on our own,
and inhibitions reduced to few.
With deepest affection
it embraced us in arms
As we realized its grace,
and admired its numerous charms.
In the roads, in the trees,
In the ambiance all around
A sense of familiarity reflected,
another home we had found.
In the talks, in the gossips,
in the restless non-stop chatter
In the melody of words,
from someone who did matter.
In the books, in sports,
In the moments of cheer
Relishing the company of friends,
the world looked so dear.
We didn't only get education,
It has imparted us learning
The simple lessons of life,
It is one most valuable earning.
From an ambitious aimless bunch,
to self-dependent souls
It gave us all so dearly,
Cleared visions and defined goals.

And now the time demands,
It speaks its intention straight
This phase is over now,
And another life does await.
Is it so simple?
Is it so smooth?
To leave it all at once
Isn't it absolutely rude?
The friends, the teachers,
The relations so true
All strings snapped,
It simply blinds one's view.
They say it's inevitable,
They say that's how it goes..
Ah so correct and so easy,
The one who bears, is the one who knows.
No more carefree chitchats ,
No more wanderings alone
No more ecstasy of B'day bumps,
No humming of mutual tone.
Diverging out from this point,
We'll follow separate roads
With hopes to carve out a niche,
discovering life's new modes.

And gradually this music will fade away,
These memories will be a thing of past
The images may get blurred,
As we sail into the ocean vast.
But one futile question
will reappear in mind too fast
Why can't some Beautiful things
In this world forever last ???

Kapil

2005-09-26T22:40:00.000+05:30

I'll write of pain and sorrow

These lines springing from my mind,
cause torment and distress intense,
for to them the Goddess Depth is unkind
to bless them with its divine fragrance,
so that they may rule all hearts:no fence,
no boundary shall ever limit their wings,
and like my sweet sweet lady's sweet incense,
is sweeter than the scent medley of all springs,
shall they be deeper than all writers' writings!

O how do I wish to write of pain and sorrow,
about the dark death and its thumping advent,
about the wrinkled thoughts and drying marrow,
about how the soul in the last hour repents.
About the apparition that charms the last moments,
when the nine storeyed concrete with golden glass
shimmering with the lights of love and hope salient,
translates into the nine levelled infernal carcass,
where grim Satan nurtures novel miseries to harrass.

So O God above :have mercy on my lot,
for I feel weary in this smooth skinned body,
like a captive bird do I stifle in this cage overwrought
with jewels and gold which do no good to the melody
that I want to sing :so in a palsy stricken frame me embody
with frail limbs and frail eyes, cause I wish not to tread
this earth nor feast on the grandeurs of wealthy dogsbody,
but I want to smear white leaves with rhymes instead,
that portray sheer profoundity when solemnly read.

'Wanderer'

On a lonesome street

2005-09-24T23:21:00.002+05:30

In the corner of one lonesome dusty street
Is where she first came in my sight
Scantily clad in torn pieces of white cloth
She defied the bitterness of a cold winter night

There was something in those eyes
Other than the orphic, faraway gaze
Existing above the deep dark half-moons
That told more of her struggle than her age

Scattered around her on a tattered cloth
Were some coins glistening in the light rays
And pieces of bread left for the next meal
Her only means of living through her days

Her hands trembled as she extended
The soiled metal bowl to the passer-by
Her skin dangled with the weight of her effort
But each time she made just another last try

Her face demanded no pity for herself
It was just a carving cut out from stone
With no emotions, expressions or expectations
But just marks of dried up tears that shone

The sunburnt skin and her faded 'sari'
Easily distinguishable from each other
Merged if you looked at their creases
As if they were taken and crumpled together

As I walked on that lonesome street
Her uncanny appearence stole my glance
But like everyone else, I walked away
Soon forgetting that ephemeral instance.

Words from Heart

2005-09-04T22:20:00.000+05:30

When a few words can make a difference,
Speak you must.
When a simple smile can thwart the cold,
Smile you must.
When a mere "sorry" can ease the pain,
Beg you must.
When pardoning someone can soothe a heart,
Forgive you must.
When a helping hand can become a prop,
Offer you must.
When ignorance can avoid the prick,
Ignore you must.
When recollection can burden the soul,
Forget you must.
Follow your heart, the master guide,
Let it hold its full sway.
When seen so, the life is straight
Why to go the crooked way?

Patches Outstand

2005-09-02T23:42:00.000+05:30

I could cling to a straw and hold on the storm,
If I had by my side your smile soft and warm.
I could sail on a raft a mighty sea,
If all along you were in full glee.

But with you gone a broken song,
Is the only solace my heart can seek.
My strength all gone, the passion's weak,
I see all around it's dull and bleak.

The sunshine's gone the darkness looms,
It's only you who can drive out the gloom.
When I paused to look around,
Amazed I was by what I found.

You're lying broken fallen apart,
Try as I may, can't bring you at par.
Drowned in tears, without any peers,
I find yourself completely sheared.

I am such a heartless soul,
Gaping at you for selfish goals.
You may have wanted me by your side,
When I took the world in huge strides.

I wanted love and wanted gain,
Never thought what could be your pain.
Now when I cannot move on,
I realize what always made me strong.

Wish I could cut my heart,
To mend yours with some patchy design.
But am sorry I cannot do it,
As yours is red and black is mine.

2005-08-25T18:23:00.000+05:30

Nectar Broke Loose

Behold her!
Yonder doth she stand,
young,crisp and comely,
with Pinks in her hand.
Agonised art these Pinks,
moaning with parted lips,
unable to match thy palour,
they are utmost foolish.
Foolish to envy the Goddess of hues,
who gave them her colour divine,
different as it would be,
for thou art sons of flesh and wine.

Those locks hanging by thy brow,
betray their motives sure,
for by their swirls and twirls,
they capture hearts pure.

How flawless are those green seas,
whom flawed mortals call eyes,
they tell tales of unbounded fertility,
challenging harshly, mother Infinity.
Thy beauty charms as a breeze,
raising hair on the gentle touch,
igniting in my heart,blushing sparks of ardent love.
'love'- what ?'love'! oh! my oh! my,
O Nemesis i pray for clemency,
for I have fallen in love with a Goddess,
yes, yes the radiant mother of hues.
A son of Mortality as I am,
it is a sin to love a divine,
shall I be doomed or pardoned ?-I do not know,
but I'll keep on loving Her,thats for sure.

NOTE - 'Nemesis' is Goddess of punishment

A Pure Soul.....

2005-08-14T21:16:00.000+05:30

Far behind in my memories lies a deep thought
Of those sweet moments which I cherish a lot
The moments which I celebrated with my mother
The moments filled with ecstasy and laughter.
Her love was the most virtuous among all
Her hands held me whenever I used to fall
She scolded me when I did something unfair
But that too, was her affection and care.
3 ‘Ls’ were the vital part of her life
without which her soul couldn’t survive
She taught me too the significance of those words
Which since then I have never heard.

‘LOVE’, she said, ‘rules your heart
which from your heart shouldn’t get apart’
and which indeed hasn’t aparted from my soul
because mother’s love is the purest form of all

‘LUCK is with you to achieve something
but for you, alone it can do nothing
Because what prior to luck is labour
And your sincere efforts will ditch you never.’

‘LOYALTY is what your dears expect from you
And this virtue should be blessed on you too.’
This is what my mother taught me…..
And her each word is still in my memory.

Then suddenly a blow came in my life
That it became difficult for me to survive
She died and left me in the world all alone
Where everyone to me was a stranger and unknown
Although she is there in that gloomy sky
Yet in my heart she does abide
No matter, to forget her, how much I strive
But as a pure soul she is still alive……

To My Lost Love

2005-08-10T17:20:00.000+05:30

Three months back I met you,
bereft of life and vibrant hue,
but the emotional void in my life,
I thought got filled scarce strife,
when you entered in my dreams,
walked my way to solemn extremes ,
made my soul feel so much sublime,
that I began to relish the fruits of rhyme.
You gave edges to my spiritual senses,
which went on to slash the earthly fences,
allowed my soul to be a witness,
to nature's great painting prowess.
So that I realised how green was that sea,
and still greener was that tree,
but the greenest of all were those eyes,
which quelled all my groaning cries,
when I gazed in them with chastity,
and felt like falling in endless eternity.
But when I was falling in your beauty,
one of your locks descended with agility,
(by the divine orders of Goddess wind)
caught hold of me and swung me back,
to this earth all dull,dark and drab.

Then did you show me the uglines of escapism,
how cold was this utter perfectionism,
taught me to take failures in stride,
and that earth is a beautiful place to abide.
At once did I find myself rooted to this earth,
felt responsible to the mother who gave me birth,
began pursuing all my earthly goals ,
with the energy of a bunch of foals.
Now all my worries began to melt like ice,
when the sun of my destiny shone with eyes
sparkling with the hopes you infused,
once in your palms my palms enclosed.
But that moment of closeness with its pace,
vanquished the horses of sun in the race,
and e'en faster went those months three,
when free as a lark our hearts flee
to warm idyllic pastorals far and wide,
made warmer with the breath you exiled,
which when blew into my face ,
threw my mind back to trace,
the form of that carressing spring breeze,
that brushed the young bloom with ease,
like a mother waking up her child,
whom dreams have repeatedly beguiled!
So was I also awakened from a dream,
when one day you left my life with a gleam.
Haplessly I searched you in the warmth of air,
tried to decipher you in the thin thin layer
of dew that dresses the sleeping leaves and flowers,
I could do nothing but get drenched in tear showers.

- Wanderer

I DREAM OF....

2005-08-10T11:25:00.000+05:30

I dream of the stars in the sky

I dream of the moon so high

I dream of the grass covered with dew

I dream of the lake with lustrous view

I dream of the light of the bright sun

I dream of the day with fear none

I dream of the birds that fly to the zenith

I dream of the song with life’s credits

I dream of the essence of the flowers

I dream of the clouds so far

I dream of the seven colors of rainbow

I dream of the mountains with snowy glow

I dream of the beauty of butterflies

I dream of the trees of paradise

I dream of the power of sword

I dream of the benevolence of Lord

I dream of the view of vast oceans

I dream of the moment with pure emotions

I dream of the hands of trust

I dream of the my tears for must

I dream of the true love in my heart

I dream of someone,who from me,will never apart

I dream of the beam that will forever enlighten me

I dream of the these dreams that will always abide by me…

Flower and Thorn

2005-07-21T11:37:00.000+05:30

Though you may have
no relation with me,
Yet I have affection
and passion for thee.
Sometimes I wonder
Wow!what a recherche you are,
In which, unmatched grandeur
and resplendence has no bar.
People love your fragrance,
are attracted by your charm,
And not surprisingly they hate me
as my spines cause them harm.
You are an embodiment of peace
I am only a source of pain,
I am the ugliest part in the plant
You are the marvel and the main.
You are used to adorn vases
I am discarded as a harmful waste,
I was created only to protect you
and so just rendered in haste.
Nature imparted splendour to you
nurturing every beauty taking its time,
I stay so near to you,thinking I am yours
yet you could, NEVER BE MINE!

Mr./ Miss Anonymous

2005-06-28T23:56:00.000+05:30

Anonymous oh Anonymous!
Here you come again
For yours are the words
Which often titillate my brain

You come to read
And leave your mark
But whats the fear
That you prefer to stay in dark
For apparently your words
Are so full of grace
Whats the reason then
That you are ashamed to show your face

Your replies are creations
Often So wonderful to admire
The flow of your thoughts
You often flaunt as you desire
If you are that eager and bold
To express your feelings here
Then why not come out in open?
And let it be all fair!

Had you wanted it all
To be a clandestine affair
You would have kept it upto yourself
And not displayed your emotions bare
You could have contacted
The person concerned on your own
And this public exchange of feelings
On this blog would not have been shown

Its so convenient
to come and say in disguise
to often convey and sport
words which speak of your wise
to let the reader go
all confused and mystified
as for what the poem meant
and what your comment implied

Now this may seem to be
full of fury and Ire
but to stop your presence
I neither can, nor desire
I've just said what I felt
sans odium of any kind
for I'll witness you again I know
that your words will again titllate my mind

A new day

2005-06-28T15:56:00.000+05:30

You didn't sleep for a moment last night
is all what your eyes have to say
the night you spent searching for the stars
when there wasn't even a single ray.
You are alone and you have lost it all
is what your mind perhaps thinks
Why dont you open your eyes,shed your tears
and let your rues finally sink?
Forget the night for here comes the morning
Discover the dawn that is finally here,
Smile, for you have transcended the dark
You have the valour,so push down the fear.
The sun has come only to make your day,
the scintilla of optimism standing before you
You tomorrow depends upon the present
the enshrouded future you still have to view.

Deceit

2005-06-25T19:10:00.002+05:30

An unnoticed flower
That bloomed in Spring
The sight of which
Gave your heart a pair of wings
But the Spring went away
The flower died down
The fragrance slowly faded
Nothing remained where it had grown

A gentle breeze
That whispered in your ear
And brought a smile for you
In that gloomy atmosphere
But the air is now still
There is silence everywhere
And even if you strain hard
There is nothing you can hear

A falling leaf
That fell in Autumn
To tell you softly
That Spring is sure to come
But Autumn never left
For the arrival of Spring
Must you still wait for me
To my memories must you cling

May be when you hear
Some faded distant noise
You try to find in them
My forgotten voice
May be when flowers bloom
As they spread their fragrance
You still think of me
That we meet again by chance

But it has been my wish
That I left you forever
With a thought in my mind
That I will return never
Not once will I smile
If our eyes again meet
All I have for you
Is thoughtless guile and deceit

Never once will I speak
To you a single word
Even if in your eyes
I see that rising flood
And I do not ask forgiveness
For this act of mine
But just hope that someday
I will be forgotten with time

Moon

2005-06-20T11:00:00.000+05:30

To see the moon
In the darkness of night
What pleasure it gives,
It’s a marvelous sight

For in every nook, every corner,
Every left or right
Only silence prevails
Along with the moonlight
It is so similar to watch
A child’s play
Enjoying hide and seek with clouds,
It slowly makes its way
It too has different moods
Each of them, a treat for a while
The crescent is a notty grin
The fullness – an innocent smile

Every time I look out in sky,
It occupies a small space
Nevertheless immediately
It brings a smile on my face
It is a companion
I admire with incredulity
For when the sun is not there
And murkiness surrounds
It is there for me
With its unfailing amity

Finally my eyes close
As I fall asleep
And forgetting all troubles
Engage in dreams so deep
It wishes me goodnight
and bids me adios
and wanders the whole night
in this boundless cosmos

Rain !!!

2005-06-10T10:45:00.000+05:30

Rain Rain Came Again,
I am wet, all over again.
Why Does It Rain ?
Why Does It Rain ?
Whenever It Comes, It give me a pain !!!

It Started When, I Was Playing A Game,
I Was Taking A Run, But All In Vain.
A Drop Came Down, Right On My Face,
And Thats How, It Stopped The Game.
I Was Winning The Game, But Got Insane,
When This Stupid Rain, Just Stopped The Game !! ":(("

Then It Happened Again, When I Was In A Plane,
I Was Enjoying The Trip, And Was Loving The Same.
But It Started To Rain, Thunder Storming Again,
Caused Me One More Pain, They Had To Land The Plane.
The Trip Was Cancelled, It Was A Reaction-Chain,
Coz It Was Raining, Again And Again !! ":(("

Then It Happened Today, I Got One More Pain,
I Was Going To The Mess, When It Started To Rain.
I Rushed To The Mess, My Clothes Weren't Same,
They All Got Wet COOOOZ It Started To Rain.
I Sat There For Long, Hoping The End Of The Rain,
But All That In a Vain, All That In A Vain.
It Didn't Stop But I Had To Come Back To Lab,
When I Came Back To Lab Then It Was Stopped, The Rain !! ":("

I Was Frustrated, Had No More Clothes To Change,
I Opened Yahoo Messenger, Just For A Change.
Then I Got More Frustrated, Actually Insane,
When I Got To Know The Reason That Why Did It Rain ??
I Saw Megha's Status Message, And Got The Game, ( Megha of 2nd Tronics :-) )
And You Know What She Was Singing ??
"Rain Rain... Come Again".

Can't I stay???

2005-06-09T22:12:00.002+05:30

Can't I stay, oh Mother dear
In this world a few more years
Why do you softly take my hand
To say, on my feet, I have to stand

Am I not standing on my feet
Am I not running around
Don't you say I flee too quickly
When nowhere I am found?

This world is, Mother, all my own
All explored, all seen, all known
But what I hear I cannot believe
When you say that I have to leave

How can you send me there
Where I have never been
A place all unknown and strange
That not even you have seen

There I will miss your hand to hold
Your love when you try to scold
And you say that I have to go
How can, Mother, you tell me so

On whose lap will I lie there
When sleep will play with me
Who will tell the reasons behind
The dreams I always see

Who will, there, wipe my tears
Who will quiet my fears
To whose arms will I run
When, Mother, there will be none

Who will see my eyes and say
I had cried the night before
And when I return tired and frail
Who will stand at the door

Whom will I tell about that fool
Who quarreled with me at school
With whom will I share jokes, Mother
When we will be not together

Who will walk on the streets with me
Who will take me to the garden
Who will pick me up, Mother dear
When I will be sometimes fallen

With whom will I share my secret
Before whom will I cry my eyes wet
If I am lost, who will care
When Mother, you won't be there

To whom will I complain
Of the things that I hate
Who will get me ready on time
When I am ever late

Who will tell me bedtime stories
Who will wash away my worries
Mother, don't you yet understand
I can't go to that unknown land

Oh Mother, there is no home there
Tell me then, when my task is done
When its time to sit and relax
Each day, where will I return?

Who will wait for me at night
Who will smile at my sight
At each meal, who will wait
Till I empty my whole plate

Why do you, Mother dear
With tears filled in your eyes
Are trying to convince me
That this life forever flies

This just cannot be true
That I will not miss you
When there will be people all around
Whoever there may be found

For, there will be not a single soul
To correct me when I am wrong
To teach me the ways of life
Or even to sing a forgotten song

Mother, must I leave?
Is that what you really believe
Mother, can't I stay
For may be just one more day.

An Application

2005-06-07T13:45:00.000+05:30

Dear Sir
With due veneration
and deep contemplation
In a sick situation
I give you information
That my condition -
acute lung inflammation,
of unknown origination,
is beyond explanation.

The doctor's recommendation
is to avoid transmission,
and rest till health restoration.
So in addition ,
to prevent further aggravation
and for the mitigation,
I may be granted permission
to enjoy an intermission
of few days duration.

Though weak in constitution
yet strong in presentation
I put forth this suggestion,
of approval of my vocation,
under the consideration
of our esteemed administration.
Thus with great expectation,
and a feeling of obligation
I extend my application.

Orkut !!!

2005-06-06T03:31:00.000+05:30

Hi all,
This is my first post on this blogspot and I am sorry if I have done any mistake in any line of the poem (and that's why achhe bache ki tareh quitely poem padho and don't tell me about any mistake ":)" ). So the poem is like:

Orkut !!!

Once upon a time a senior,
Did something to me severe.
He invited me on orkut,
since then I feel like Chirkut !!

Time fly like a whirlwind since then,
Never found anything else since then.
Every time I sit on computer now,
Feel like trapped or addicted somehow !!

I discovered many friends, I discovered many trends,
I discovered that how to make some new friends.
The communities are itself some passion,
God knows how long will I go in this fashion !!

Scrapping someone is another charm,
Watching your scrap book growing is another chasm.
Friends b'day notification is another craze,
Orkut people have set everything in a perfect maze !!

Sexy, cool and trustworthy count is a nice funda, ";)"
Having some fans on your account is another agenda.
Album-Shalbum needs updation,
Testimonial is yet another cool creation !!

I hate this orkut, I hate this hell,
I curse the day when I got this jail. ":-("
I want to be free, I want to flee,
but this orkut's web will never consider my plea !!

Only option left is to delete my account,
but after that I won't get sexy count. ":-)"
I am here and I don't know why,
I will stay there and will never fly !!

Pray for me I am in a worst situation,
And I think good prayers are the only solution.
The orkut world is full of scintillation,
But I swear to God that Now I Want Migration !!

But at last I know my nature too,
That I won't leave this place, this zoo.
And I know that in orkut... Its
miles to go before I sleep...
And miles to go before I sleep !!!

Oh! my worthy Friend

2005-06-05T23:42:00.000+05:30

Often you have cried before me
telling your feelings and your worries
I chose to be quiet at those times
quietly rendering them to my memories.
And someday when those memories are revived
I sit back to ponder what it all meant
when you said my muteness pleases you and
listening on my part provides you strength.

The reason for my dumbness
the reason why I stare
is that I have no mind to speak
I have no thoughts to share.
When I listen to you for hours
I am not bothered,is what u think
but what you have probably forgotten
is that friends together sail and sink.

May be I am no more in your thoughts
no more in your heart rather
still I will always see a ray of hope
that someday we will again be together.
But the truth is,you just break
my heart and hope,Oh! my worthy friend
when you make those sharp statements
that our friendship has come to end.

Shredded Illusions

2005-06-05T10:54:00.000+05:30

Who’s she…
Someone who just comes in a flash
and mesmerizes you…
You feel desperate…
Wanna talk…
Wanna listen…

Ha! What a joke! For HER
It’s just like that
Another mud blood ... she need not bother
Like myriads of others… trying to trouble
A born unworthy…ignoble altogether

The response is so intimidating
You even wonder who you are…
And soon realize
That truth is... but far
But then why so desperate...just coz of looks?

NOoooooooooo
the answer cries out…
That after months of imposed silence
the truth finally does shout

It had never been easy dreaming alone...
It’s just the endeavor to found someone for you…
Whose problems you’d listen…
Whose worries you’d lessen…
Whom you’d make happy come what may…
With whom your life would come true

But it doesn’t come like that…
Its harsh and damn hell…to consider
It was necessary to pretend some1…
To fake that YES… You have found her…
You always knew it’s false…
But denied …to gain momentary pleasure…

So that when friends teased… you flushed…
any reality strike... you brushed
And don’t know how...
every then and now…
you started to believe
That her love… you will receive
That in her wonderful reverie
you felt all so merry
So conveniently, to yourself
you continued to deceive

And today you stand alone…
You had to face it someday…
That it was just a FAKE …
And verity did seek a way.
The crush was real
but never so deep…
That it would touch you…
or make you weep
But you feigned
to satiate your fancies and desire
You allowed hallucinations to slake
the anonymous wishes you admire

And it has all finished now…
Visible straight and bare
And all you plead now
is neither compassion nor care
It’s just a feeling you wanna let all know
that if they are hurt...
You bear the anguish also
That things were not...
exactly in your hands
That all you adored
were only castles built in sands
The things went fine
until the mirage of sun shone plain
Then came the inevitable
the veracity…in a rain
So heinously it obliterated all
making you pain…
And finally you were left…
Feeling insane…inane…

Kapil

Morning

2005-06-04T11:15:00.003+05:30

What does come to your mind with "morning"?
'Sunrise', 'dawn', a new 'beginning'...
And the expanse of the blue sky
So 'vast', so 'clear' and so much 'high'
The 'fiery' sun burning 'bright'
'Illuminating' the world with its 'light'
The 'end' of 'darkness', 'death' of 'night'
The morning is a sheer 'delight'!!!

Yet in the same morning I found
The sky so 'empty' with no stars around
And as the sun burns away
I find it 'lonely' on each day
Each morning as I look at the skies
I wonder why I burn my eyes
And this I have never understood
Why morning reminds me of 'solitude'

The morning is a delight to me as well
With that this question always does dwell

For I never know why should I
Find the 'emptiness' of the 'vast' sky
And that my eyes should ever see
That the 'mighty' sun is so 'lonely'
Each morning, each new dawn
Why should I find this world 'forlorn'??

Lighting up the dark

2005-06-02T13:37:00.000+05:30

I look up to the vast sky above me
knowing that I will admire it again,
I stand in awe of their brilliance
staring quietly at the endless chain.

There is no corner,no unexplored space,
their beacon of light cannot fill
and if the world starts causing waves,
it's their devotion that makes it still.

They have been there since time started
to constantly illuminate the dark,
to fill our hearts with wonder
and to ignite the eternal spark.

Wherever we are,they guide us our way
when one burns out,another comes fast,
sometimes,they seem so close to us
like a long cherished dream from our past.

I have heard and realised,their magic works
and that is probably why God,the saviour,
simply created them to remind us
that somethings really go on forever.

It is then that.....

2005-05-31T23:31:00.000+05:30

When nothing goes well with me
It is then that my heart cries,
had something been good or new
I would have rather looked for a surprise!

When silence dwells in the air
It is then that my mind rules,
had I been listening to someone
my thoughts would simply vanish in a pool!

When I am all alone
It is then that I am most afraid,
had we been together even in the sun
Surely,I would'nt care to be in the shade!

When friends are nowhere to be found
It is then that I miss those moments,
had we been having fun on the streets
life would just seem to me to be heaven!

When I will be gone far from you
It is then that you will care to think of me,
had I been waiting for you as I always do
you wouldn't even turn back ,what I often see!

I tried not to... hurt you

2005-05-30T21:35:00.002+05:30

I looked at
You
With tears in eyes
You
Preferred to close your eyes.
Slowly I moved away not to hurt you again.
Turning back
When I once more saw you,
I realised, your closed eyes
Held the tears
That I forced you to
Bring in your eyes, you didnt want to.
There is no more coming back, I am far
From your words, your thoughts, your life.
Moving away had hurt you, coming back would probably
Hurt you harder.

JFWTC !! (www.jfwtc.com).....

2005-05-28T13:13:00.000+05:30

JFWTC !!
doesn't it looks like some Trade Centre, (WTC)
but, it is John F. Welch Technology Centre,
it's a place worth it's name... (guys frm our branch fighted to come here)
it's a real technology centre. ( I hav never seen like this one before)

here you can do everything, (except sleeping, as guest house is too far off)
money is not at all a matter here,
these guys talk in K's. (that too in $K's)
but despite all this, what truly it is....

they say, it's a Global Research Centre,
it makes one feel of a Research centre.
I too thought of doing some research here,
but may be, they meant research for money ...

GE, one of the biggest multinationals,
JFWTC, the second largest Research centre of GE,
so, you have to keep the name and quality...
not of yourself.... but of GE.

you are responsible for your every act, (in Cetre and at home too)
you get thrashings for not completing assignments, (within time)
you get kicked off for not giving importance to the company,
does research happens like this.. (with time and performance limitations)

they give you everything you want,
and you still remain a slave...
a slave with a tag around your neck. (better call it a dog)
bearing the name of the company.. (of course you are also there)

you remain their pet dog.
they'll provide you everything,
right from phone to food,
from assurance to insurance.

you can work what you want,
but it has to be their project.
you can develop any technology,
but it has to be related to their product.

you can do any research you want,
but it has to result in a more profitable product.
JFWTC !!
Doesn't it looks like some Trade Centre.....

The wait that wasn't in vain

2005-05-22T21:16:00.000+05:30

You were only made for me
God said this has to be,
Then why couldn't it be true
Why did I lose you ?

You left me there alone
and came here before,
Leaving me to wait
for you at the shore.

And as you were leaving
I hope you would come to know,
Someday when the flowers bloomed
that someone had loved you so.

I had an undoubted feeling
that you would surely return,
Hold my hand and we would stroll
In the evening and under the sun.

But then I kept waiting
and you didn't come,
Pulling my breath away
and leaving me all numb.

My love for you
was my ultimate strength,
Still I kept wondering
what for was the wait meant.

Are we made for each other
or are we really not,
You had told me once
which I intentionally forgot.

Tell me the truth once more
for now and for all,
Was it true what you silently said
when we first met at the mall.

I could very well see
the blush on your face,
The dreamy look in your eyes,
a just another love struck case.

Life suddenly looked heaven
just revolving around you,
My love for you is boundless
I wish I could tell you.

All this I remembered
but still didnt shed a tear,
Looked towards the almighty
with all my hope ,my dear!

A hope ,that you listened
to what all my heart felt,
That I couldnt live without you
a cry that made the stone melt.

That cry was deep from my heart
and that hope wasnt in vain,
For a lovely wind blew
and dropped the gentle rain.

Just then a leaf fell
a lovely word of dote,
The one you had sent
and this was all you wrote.

'Of all friends I have ever met
you are the one I won't forget,
So when I die before you do
I ll go to heaven and wait for you.'

And this was how I understood
the reason for my state,
The wait for both the lovers
that was written in their fate.

I thanked the wind again and again,
for bringing the note to me,
That told me about your wait
and all that was felt by thee.

Then I happily left the shore
My heart, enriched with love anew,
That brought me here to heaven,
thinking ,Alas! I would be forever with you.

Moving on...

2005-05-21T18:50:00.001+05:30

People hurriedly pass by my side
I move on with my usual stride
Soon among the crowd of faces
My face mingles leaving no traces
Just as singles droplets of rain
Mingle with water of the vast ocean

I move on, for, stopping is death
Time drags me with each of my breath
Sometimes I look back, try to recall
But each moment I see my past getting small
Then again if I really want to find
I find them in the corners of my mind

At moments when I am lulled into sleep
Thats when into my fondest dream i peep
As time moves on, so do dreams
Like a movie with no sound no film
I cannot recollect them when I am awake
Does that mean dreams are fake?

The current of time continues to move on
With dreams and reality life trudges along
Moments to hours, hours to days
Some years later ages pass away
When I look by my side again
I find new people walking in new lanes

I still find them hurrying by me
The changes of time... why cant i see?

2005-04-14T08:04:00.000+05:30

i saw one of the strangest dream,
with strange faces all around.
there was none in whom my pleasure lived,
none in whom my joys abound.

lovely faces with tender smiles,
friendly speeches with royal styles.
but none could strike the deepest notes,
which spring from heart at earnest tones.

sometimes we leave lovely world of our own,
where seeds of simple love and pleasure were sown.
to seek happiness in alien land ,
where flame of love never heats the sand.

there eyes are shallow and faces lie,
there arms never embrace as does the sky.
i wished i could find a familiar face,
who would walk along with my sigular pace.

many dreams we dream in life,
with some relished and others forgotten.
but people who do matter to us,
their memories do remain immortal.

a few people can make the world
but the world cannot be those few

BY RITU!

SomeOne

2005-04-09T14:00:00.000+05:30

It's someone who makes you smile
It's someone who's all along

For in the fragrance of flowers,
In the charm of spring
With jauntiness around,
and the birds chirping
In the beauty of a full moon,
on a cloudless night
In the serenity of sky,
containing stars infinite.

Its her dulcet voice,
which sings a song
and in her calmative intimacy,
does your contentment belong.

It's someone who defines your passion
It's someone who gives you hope.

When situations are inimical,
unanticipated afore
When dreariness surrounds,
and apprehensions galore.
Or when the gloom is over,
and sunrays appear.
To esteem your feat
and acclaim your endeavor.

Her magical words,
gave you vigor to cope.
and It's to the glow of her face,
That you dedicate your coup

It's someone who's so charismatic,
It's someone whom you adore
Though it's different that her,
you've never met before.

Though she's unknown yet
though she's unseen
You know she's there...
all for you, ..pristine
For the world may jeer at you
It may simply deride
But it's one fabulous fancy,
In which you really take pride.

It's someone whom you truly wish for,
It's someone for whom you'll wait.
For either you'll meet her one day
or dreaming alone is your fate.

Childish !!!

2005-04-09T00:59:00.001+05:30

It helps the child in me to live
When I say in fairies i believe
I still wish on wishing stars
And wait for it to come true in years
Will you believe if I say, at night
I wait to catch an angel's sight
Or that beneath those bunch of mushrooms
I search for things left by gnomes
I still think there lives Peter Pan
And hope to go someday to his land
I believe that when we whisper
Even if no one, God can hear
That the dreams we always see
Can come true how unreal the be
That each time a tear drops from eyes
There falls a star from the skies
That if I bring a smile to a face
It can give me many happy days
And this I always will believe
In each of us a child does live
And for the existence of its life
I wish you could forever strive
And if you don't believe on what I say
Can you please forgive my childlish way

LIFE GOES ON..

2005-03-15T16:00:00.000+05:30

Whatever you do...or you don't do.
Whether you smile.. or u cry...
Whether u make frns.. or enemies
The life goes on...

Whether u think abt others or not
Whether others think abt u or not
Whether u live for others or not
The life goes on...

Whether you remember ur frns or not
Whether you get angry or not
Whether you eat food or not
The life goes on..

The life goes on.. as it has to
It doesn't stop for anyone as it hasn't to
It won't look what's up as it is it's nature
But in the end it does matter.

The life goes on.. as is has to
Whether or not you think abt ur nature
Whether or not you think abt ur behaviour
Whether or not you think abt ur character
But in the end it does matter.

You will go but your name will remain
You will go but your friends will remain
You will go but your memories will remain
So that's why in the end it does matter.

There is so much to do other than hatred
There is so much to do other than crying
There is so much to do other than envy
Coz. in the end it really does matter

The life goes on.. as is has to
and you go on as u are made to
But do think of what ur upto
as in the end it does matter.

The life goes on..

Charm of... Life

2005-02-26T08:30:00.001+05:30

Somethings are best found in books
Fairytales for instance
The magic, the beauty, the charm
That can take you into a trance
Reality still remains
Away from perfectness
And may be thats the reason
It is so much gud to face
And in this world we live
If you find something ideal
One thing is for sure
It just cannot be real
May be somtimes as people say
If we rise above the common being
Above this world of reality
We will find tht perfect thing
But I dont know if
There still will be that charm
The charm of facing this world
Of fighting the raging storm
The joys wouldnt have been happy
If the sorrows were not sad
And if the autumn was not bare
Spring wouldnt have made us glad
The perfectness of fairytales
Would not be fascination then
This world would have been crowded
With similar people, similar men
The charm of reality is that
It is away from being ideal
It is the absence of perfectness
That makes life so much real.

Just a passing thought

2005-02-24T01:08:00.001+05:30

As my mind was roaming vaguely
Often as it does
A thought brushed by my side
And I thought what it was
I held it back, talked to it
Laughed with it for sometime
And for that short moment
The thought was just mine
Then as the moment drifted away
I let the thought go
But now I regret at that moment
I didnt let it grow
I wish the thought had grown that time
In my little mind
Into some lines of poem
To become forever mine
But the thought passed away
Often as it does
And I try to recall back
What the thought was.

The Mirror

2005-02-24T00:49:00.002+05:30

As I stood before the mirror
It refused to recognize me
I stand no more as the person
I always used to be

My innocence is lost
The child in me has died
My wishes have vanished
My dreams are no more wide

My imagination do not go
Beyond what is already there
I smile too often
But happiness is still rare

I walk on roads that
Exists already
I have become what
I have to be

My wings are clipped
I can no more fly
And it pains my eyes
When I look into the sky

I can think of
The existing world only
Today, its among the crowd
That I feel lonely

I am free, true
I can decide on my own
But I am still bound
By forces unknown

The mirror might break
Breaking my image with it
But I still have a heart
That will continue to beat.

A Steady Move

2005-02-23T23:15:00.000+05:30

Every time we give an examination,
Before which we were full of determination.
We wait for result with extreme anxiety,
And pray for the best to every God and Deity.

Sometimes we are happy else disheartened,
When all our efforts have reached an end.
Then we are ready for another examination,
And work for it with more enthusiasm.

How many examinations we give in life,
Can you or I answer?
How many efforts gave fruits which were ripe,
Can you or I remember?

It is just momentary happiness,
It is just momentary pain.
Then why to count who lost less,
And who was it who gained!

Live for happiness and to share joy,
If life gives a chance live like a coy.
Do your duty with utmost faith,
And what be the result is just your fate.

I agree life is full of examinations,
But don't give them the mask of tensions.
It is good to yearn and strive,
But don't forget your aim in life.

You get life only for once,
Live it happily at any expense.
Do not let troubles bother you,
Fight them, forget them and make a new move.

Once...

2005-02-22T00:23:00.002+05:30

There was once a time
She used to come as often as i breath
She sang my songs for me
And healed me when i bled
She spoke the words i wanted to say
And let my silence speak for me
But now... i find her only in
The torn pages of my diary

Success

2005-02-21T22:14:00.000+05:30

Have you ever experienced it?
To be void of a goal …
That in a strange, unidentified trance
Your mind hovers..
Along with your soul..

To find a reason, to search a cause
To mark a rule, or set of laws.
To define the target,
The motive of all
This world, this life
Appears a pall

You achieve something
And get a name
The people applaud
n appreciate the same
You’re flooded with friends...
They are all with you
But in this swamp, this crowd
You seek someone true
For this mob recognizes,
The facts n forgets
At the end of the day.
...only solitude 1 gets

You look back at the ‘feat’
And are bound to ask
Is this the success?
A phony? a mask!
For try you may...
They are not with you...
And a quaint precariousness…
Simply blinds your view

As the friends sneer
Whenever you cheer
When the poison of jibes,
You just can’t bear
You crave for company,
You’re brushed aside
You’re a ‘freak’, they spurn
You have to abide
And they said that ‘success’
Was a thing of pride?

The pain, the agony,
The ignominy of being forgotten
As they ‘alacriously’ enjoy,
When your mood is rotten
The few lone moments,
Soon appear to be years
And there is no one beside,
Who can look inside
For the smiling glares,
Are only camouflage to tears.

You stare through the victinity
At the hollow of your existence
For after following the norms,
Why doesn’t it make sense?
Only silence prevails, as you await reply
For 1 thing you know,
its futile to cry
But out there in clouds, in the realm of bliss
Some one is ashamed…
It does imply.

Kapil

For Long...

2005-02-21T21:50:00.001+05:30

Some moments of your life
That you hold a little near to you
That get engraved in your mind
To be cherished for long

Some people in your world
Who get a greater care from you
Who get settled in your heart
To be loved for long

Some places on your way
That seem to be dear to you
Where you feel it like your home
To remain there for long

These are the marks that get scratched
Somewhere very close to heart
That you savour like your own
To be remembered for long

Should I say

2005-02-20T01:50:00.000+05:30

Should i say, that i like you
or should i say, that i don't
But to speak that its untrue
I'd be able to? i won't

For the moments we share
I am not just with me
the twinkle of your eyes,
is all I can see
The laughter, the smile,
the innocence in you
the purity, the feeling,
is found only in few
for the words, the talks
the glow of your face
are all mesmerizing
I swear it with grace
for the kind,the nice
the beautiful your soul
I myself today here,
propose you a role

Should i say,that i love you
or should i say, that i don't
But to neglect its eternity,
you'd be able to?you won't

For the strength, the emotions
I have with me here
I promise that I will love,
I will trust and I will care
For the vacuum, the void
your absence does create
In my every beat I feel you
and I know you're my fate
For I am not so glam,
and I am not so fast
But the unfathomable love
for you will always last
For I don't exactly dazzle
and I don't exactly shine
But with the sincerity of my heart,
I would love to say "you're mine"

Should I say, that I adore you
or should i say that I don't
but to stop my heart from doing so
sine-die I'd be able to? I won't

kapil